So, love is a decent word. It carries all your pains and sorrows away. And love is patient. Love is giving. Love is forgiveness. And one day, when you find love, your dream is just become...

   Saturday, October 07, 2006  

It has been quite a while since then... About more than a month. Hope you have been doing well... I guess homework pressure is building up. I am sure you can cope =)

I would like to apologise for the luke-warm meeting up that day when you passed me the ang bao for my brother wedding. I wasnt in the best of mood and right frame of mind during that time I guess... My brother and sister-in-law wanna say thanx...

Well, it may be clinche to say this, but I cant really find any other better phrases to describe... ??????????????????Hope that I will not lose this good friend. I wanna thank you for the wonderful 4 years. I really enjoyed myself during the times. Well, I still have the jigsaw painting that you gave me... Been up in my room all along until recently when it had to give way to my brother's wedding picture... Now just hope that in whatever path we take, it would be smooth sailing with minimal disruptions. Cheers.

Dont intend to type too long, for I believe there will be more chances to talk. Recently been busy with hall production. Want to go?? 27/28th OCT. Tix at $15/-. Well, been hammering and nailing away every other night, listening to music and crapping... Oh, a nice song that kept playing over the radio recently... hmm, its really well written i think... here it is... tired... time to sleep...

http://www.6rooms.com/player.swf?vid=C3H8_IaOnv4eTidc__rHYQ

http://mp3.baidu.com/m?tn=baidump3lyricp&word=%CE%D2%C3%C7%B5%C4%BC%CD%C4%EE%C8%D5&ct=150994944&lm=-1&rn=1&pn=0

Cheers
ZJ

   posted by zHaN at 10/07/2006 05:58:00 am






   Tuesday, September 05, 2006  

I suppose this chapter had really came to an end. Perhaps its time i end this blog... I dont know.

Tears,
ZJ

   posted by zHaN at 9/05/2006 10:50:00 am






   Tuesday, August 29, 2006  

Life is starting to get busier... Hall concert preparation have officially commenced. Well, Edwin says that preparation will be Monday to Friday, from 8pm to 12mn. Thats kinda crazy I think... Still have school work to cope with... But... well, I guess if there is a will, there is a way... Sets is quite fun afterall. Its something that I like doing! Technical work...

Wonder how would I be able to manage my time in future... I hope I can really strike a good balance in ALL aspects... I do not want to neglect any parties...

Been kinda moody these few days though I always seem to be ever cheerful... I guess I just choose to indulge in activities to take my mind of some stuff. Just sat down yesterday on my bed and I started staring at the ceiling... Blankly... Started thinking... I wanted to find a day to come out to have a chat over a coffee or a proper nice dinner... But I couldnt find a day where both of us would be equally free and not-exhausted. I felt really frustrated. Its like "so near yet so far".... Shucks, remind me of my kinky class production in RV... Nvm... Sometimes I wonder if I am just too oversensitive. Do I read too much into people's words? I was really really sad a few days back... It may just be a passing comment, but... it came from that special person and it really pierced...

Oh, I really had a great birthday girl... Thanx for the special morning. Thanx for the nicely designed card. Well, I sort of guessed that the prezzie was ur homework... so... ha. Thanx for the i dunn-what oreo cake. It was really nice! just a bit too melted. Thanx for the photo... though a bit too long. haha. Thanx... The message in the card is.. really nice...

Tired... time to rest... (literally)... Lectures are killing me... tutorials are more fun...

Love,
ZJ

   posted by zHaN at 8/29/2006 07:20:00 pm






   Wednesday, August 09, 2006  

I am a simple man. I do not have many desires. I am not picky.

I only wish for myself to be appreciated. I only wish for my actions to be acknowledged. I only wish for some sense of security. I only wish for a sincere hug...

I wish.

Cheers
ZJ

   posted by zHaN at 8/09/2006 09:52:00 am






   Saturday, August 05, 2006  

I am feeling lost. I am feeling frustrated. I am feeling insecure. There seems to be something wrong. I cant grasp it. I am losing it.

ZJ

   posted by zHaN at 8/05/2006 08:39:00 am






   Sunday, May 28, 2006  

Even I am getting confused... What is the direction its going?

Its abt a month since we last held hands? ... ... I dont know, but I feel like I am losing it. I am getting confused. I am having doubts. There is an unknown surfacing inside me...

What am I considered? I dont know...

Filling my mind up with activities... Trying not to think too much. I need more stuff to occupy me...

ZJ

   posted by zHaN at 5/28/2006 03:53:00 am






   Saturday, May 20, 2006  

Whenever I am out with her, I just feel so glad that she is still beside me... with me... Whats this feeling?...

Feeling void now. Alone at home. Staring at the four walls. Frsutrated. At what? I do not know... Void. Blasting my music. Staring...

ZJ

   posted by zHaN at 5/20/2006 05:48:00 am